
My policy has always been to forgive and forget! But somehow to be honest to myself, its harder than it seems.
I knew this friend Hazel, during my first year on the job. We came in to the company on the same day, holding the same post. Naturally we got very close to each other. She was my best friend at the time. Anything for her. Because of the nature of the job, we work separately in different states, but when there is a company event, we meet, and the two of us were inseparable. Everyone knows that!
It goes on for a few years. Although we each have our own circle of other friends, to me, she is still my best friend. I also have another close friend, Nelly, from the same department, whom I spent most of my lunchtime with.
Until that unfortunate turn of event. I was dragged into an office political situation, and retaliated, which unfortunately had put a senior manager, Delilah, a head of department, into an awkward position. Naturally she isn't happy with me. But because of 'professionalism', we talked in out, trashed it out, just the two of us. But before I left her room, happy, she asked me a question. Who is your best friend in this office? I naively, and happily, told her about these two friends.
Is it fate, or is it God's way of telling you and to let you see the truth!
I noticed that eversince that day, my lunchtime buddy, Nelly, seemed to be on very good terms with Delilah, and a few of her other friends. They even go out together after work. It wasn't a problem for me, as I seldom go out after work, anyway. However, Nelly would still always go for lunch with me, except on some few occassions where she joined that lady and her other friends. Fine by me, honestly. Unsuspectingly....
But my best friend..... In one company event where we normally seek each other out, Hazel doesn't seem to be with me this time. It was a corporate vacation. I hardly see her, but didn't sensed anything. On the day back to the city, I chosed a vacant seat for two in the bus at front seats and waited for her. I was hoping to catch her and be seated together. I waved at her and she sat next to me, but she seemed anxious and kept looking at the back. I was busily talking and updating her, but little did I realised that she wasn't listening. Suddenly she got up and said, "I'm sitting at the back!" and just left. I looked behind, and there I saw Delilah, waving at her, signalling her to sit with her and friends at the back.
Then only, it struck me, and I realised what actually happened. I suddenly understand why Delilah is so friendly with my Nelly, and now my Hazel. I sat alone in the bus throughout the journey while I hear laughter at the back of the bus. I suddenly realised that I just lost a friend! Now I know why Delilah asked me who's my close friends were in the company. She is punishing me in the only way she can. By hurting me using my friends. I cried inside the whole journey......
But my lunch buddy friend, Nelly....she passed the test with flying colours. She's friendly to people who's friendly to her, but she never leave my side. To date, even when we have not been colleagues for years, we still keep in touch! She's definitely is one of my true friends.
My best friend, Hazel, is no longer. I dont know what happened between her and that Delilah after that, but I don't care anymore. Somehow over the years she befriended Nelly. Nelly, who knew we were best friends, told me, (but didn't have a clue what happened) always conveyed to me her regards. She asked if I want Hazel's number, but I declined. A few years back, Nelly once suggested that I buy a house close to hers, but I already committed to my current house. Then I heard Hazel bought a house there too. Oh well.... (shrug)
And recently Nelly and I got connected on facebook. And then Hazel also send me a friend's request. I have forgiven her, and I accepted her friend's request. But really, I cannot forget. She said she missed me a few times, but I simply cannot say the same.... For the last tears that I shed because of her, I had burried deep down whatever friendship's love that I had for her...
Real story, fictional names.