Dilemma

Once in a year or two, I am faced with a dilemma. Its like a pattern. As much as I hate to acknowledge it, I hate dilemmas. It make me feel uneasy, incomplete and maybe to a certain extent, insecure. Whoa... I am being towards negative, here, but reality in life strucks. You can't tell them to go away. They are also, somewhat an effect of your own doing. Nevertheless, I believe in letting it out, I mean, honest feelings, to find yourself, be it negative or positive. And that will actually helps to see things objectively, and maybe even find a solution for it.

Today I am hit by one. A dilemma. .. . from a situation which that I've started several years ago. I got involved in a 'financial career path' which I wasn't sure if I really wanted to venture into. Somehow after a few trainings, I feel that it was doable and along the way, I got excited at the prospect. It seemed so easy, yes of course, when you are convinced that its something you wanted to do. Quite a lucrative venture, and with a 'great and friendly' team, what could go wrong?

I did quite a number of prospecting for new trainees. They saw the potentials. And we learned and worked together. Things seems to be going so well. We even had fun....at least for me. I even got promoted to one level higher. Somehow priorities change. While it was a fairly good career path, I do have other responsibilities and obligations. In fact, before my friend called me regarding this venture, I had just relinquished all other prior activities. Which was why I wasn't too sure if I should get involved in anything else at all. Somehow I got 'convinced' by the team. I was willing to try it out, unaware of the culture sets within the organisation.

The 'culture' I was referring to surfaced soon after my friend suddenly decided to be involved in a business. She decided not to concerntrate in just this venture, and 'declare' it to all. That was the biggest mistake ever. Soon, she was asked to relinquish her whole team. And most of us, the newbies, were confused. But we stayed on. We still question, though, what happened to TLC they so preaches? What happened to Big Heart?

After about a year, when I feel its time for me to proritize other things for my family, history was about to repeat itself. However, learning lessons from my friend, I stood firm, and carry on with my decision without letting off any of my team. Hey....there are such things as 'agreement', 'consent' and 'signature'.

A couple of years down the road, I remained an inactive agent with a very active double team. They remained strong and growing. Slow and steady. This somehow creates another situation where some interested party were not too happy with my situation. Not directly, but attempts were made that these people be transfered away from me to their direct team.

I have to make a decision. One, just let my inactivity be, que sera, sera... or plan something. It has to be in line with my priorities. The question is, am I willing to make that change?